And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. — Mark 4:39
Two years ago God said to me if you could only see yourself the way I see you. Tears came to my eyes when I heard him say those words to me. I used to be so consumed by how people saw me because that’s how I was raised. I depended on people’s words and viewed their words as my truth. I had no relationship with Our Father, therefore, I had no knowledge of who I am. I only knew me to be whom the world calls me: single mother, ex-girlfriend, ex-wife, unstable, disable, too smart; and a bunch of other names.
Then I meet Jesus and got to know about our Father and I have been asking him to help me daily accept whom he has made me to be since the beginning of creation. I’m still in the process. Still learning how to not see myself as rejected by the world, but see my spirit as accepted by our Father. It can be a challenge at times when certain storms come your way: like asking your family to help pay for a hotel room and help you and your children move only for them to say they can’t; or ignore you; or make you feel bad. Things like that are hard. Or when you apply for disability and are denied numerous times and cannot obtain a regular job, so you sit and ask God, “What then do you want me to do Lord?” And his response to you is to, “Feed my sheep.” When everyone around you is going in the opposite direction that God is sending you in and you start to think that maybe it is you and not them and you want to give up, but God won’t let you give in. When you want to be mad and make them feel bad, and God teaches you in the moment of those thoughts, that doing that would be manipulation and forcing them to do what God says; so you cancel the thought and repent to your Father and pray for them instead to receive the Spirit of God, like Job did for his friends. It can be challenging. You start to feel like why must I always let it go, and you hear God saying,
“Because I am your Father and I have more. All things belong to me and come from me. I am the way. I am the truth. I am the light and the life. There is no other way in except by me and my sheep obey my voice because this is right. Because I will be the one to lead you to green pastures, and I will be the one to restore all unto you that was lost. And I will be a father to you and a mother and a friend and a husband; I will be your everything. Just obey my commands and think nothing less and I will bring you to a place where my glory will be seen through you.”
And you lay there in the darkness only seeing his goodness and mercy light up the room and you say to the wind, “Peace be still.”
And it becomes still.
Hold on to God’s word.
It will not return to him void.
There will be glory after this.
Thou shalt no more be termed Forsaken; neither shall thy land any more be termed Desolate: but thou shalt be called Hephzibah, and thy land Beulah: for the LORD delighteth in thee, and thy land shall be married. — Isaiah 62:4
Study lesson: Isaiah 66
Be encouraged. Be inspired. Be who God created you to be.
Apostle Bella Grace